safe and sound

迷迷蒙蒙的路走到尽头了
我想这次是真的到头了
真的到头都大了
庆幸的是我的神还是如常的奇妙
何其的伟大
人心来衡量的话
那是一个永远都说不完的故事
故事的起伏跌落存放现在存放在库里最角头的位置
而当初砌的每一块砖和每一张瓦
已在潜意识里筑成了专属的纪念碑
碑面上清楚的刻朔着每个地方发生的人文趣事
随着时间和风雨的侵蚀
渐渐地碑面上存留着的
只是一团迷糊的刻迹。。

when I was small and Christmas tress were tall

I came across this song lately, although it cannot compare with Your songs of worship but it dwells my heart recently..



When I was small and Christmas trees were tall
we used to love while others used to play
don't ask me why but time has passed us by
someone else moved in from far away
now we are tall and Christmas trees are small
and you don't ask the time of day
but you and I
our love will never die
but guess who'll cry come first of May

The apple tree that grew for you and me
I watched the apples falling one by one
and as I recall the moment of them all
the day I kissed your cheek and you were gone
now we are tall and Christmas trees are small
and you don't ask the time of day
but you and I our love will never die
but guess who'll cry come first of May

When I was small and Christmas trees were tall
do do do do do do do do do...
don't ask me why but time has passed us by

someone else moved in from far away........

lead me on

Yet not what I want but what You want Lord lead me on

As you grow up

Days becoming so miserable lately, seriously not to mention about emotion or stress is just simply encountering some mental disorder, having insomnia every night, got frighten up in the middle of the night and was soak by sweat in an fully air conditioned room. Indeed I need the Lord seriously now. I got scolded by one of my core member just now, which enlighten me a little. Maybe all these while I am too protected like a flower inside the greenhouse. I guess is the time for me to growth and leaving all those unnecesary stuff behind. God I need You more than ever before, speak to me and teach me how to love the uglies. Teach me how to accept people that is flaw like what I am flaw in your eyes. Give me strength Lord.

I found this lovely thingy on the web:

As you grow up, you will learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back. Don’t be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

I LoVe You GoD !

I came back early after the service today. I felt that it is more closer to God when I put down my guitar, my pride and everything just to worship Him. I have a very strong touch that God let me see this evening during the CYC service. Pastor Jonathan talk about giving our heart back to God. This reminds me of the begining of this year 2009, God gave us a promise which is in Deutronomy 11:18 You will be having plenty of harvest, new crops, new wine and new oil. This is going to be fulfill when we our ownselves follow God's word, way, and kingdom. And when pastor preaching the second point is about dont let money take over you. When pastor giving his own testi about this, suddenly something punch my heart. I felt that God is talking to me, although that in my existing situation I didnt turn away from God because of money but all of a sudden i realize one thing.

Things that we owned today actually doesnt belongs to us from the original, I not mentioning money here, I'm mentioning friendship, family, serving, even relationship. We are sinnners and from the first place we have no authority and no right to claim to having all these things. I went out and answer the alter after the messsage, once again I feel that God is talking to me again. He bring me and look back into every part and parcel of the things I own now.
My Friendship, people doesnt need to be nice and kind with you, they don't know who you are. Eventhough they know that you're the guitarist of CYC but then still how, without God I wont be knowning so much of great and nice people around. I really thank God for that.
My Family, I really thank God that gave me such a perfect family, at least I didnt grown up in a single parents family or in a creppy house. God, thank you for doing all these things for me.
And many other things more, people doesnt pay to show a single care to you Robin Ooi. This pumped me alot when God spoke to me, is truth! People really didnt get a single dollar when they show a caring to me or hug me or give me a hand when I am next to them. I should be grateful and thankful for all these blessing.

God, thank you for putting so much of blessing in my life. I love you forever more, forgive me for not being satisfied all these while, I understand You have a great plan for me, I will put You in advance of everything today onwards.

Wonderful & Mighty

Thank God finally I have some time to update about myself here.
At church office now, waiting to meet with xiao yan jie regarding the new structure in the team.

Well, to be honest is really having some rough days lately but yet I still putting my faith firm in God for whatever things I doing or facing. Over the past few weeks CYC had celebrate our first 5th anniversary. Looking at the LCD screen when it projecting photos and image of those days, there are heat generate from my heart. Although I dont have my own child yet, but the feeling is like the child had grown up a little bit and start to enter kindergarten. There is joy and there is also tears all the way from OCT 2004 to OCT 2009, life has been changed, wound has been healed. I do look forward for the next 5 years, I wonder where will we be that time? Stadium, perhaps. There will be another amazing 5 years ahead. AMEN!!

Meanwhile, my beloved leader aka dear big brother in Christ is awaiting to claim his father position this week. Abigail is coming out in a very soon period. Pray that God will be with he and yitming all the time.
Xiao yan jie here already, gonna head for the meeting now.
By the way...Christmas approaching.. I LOVE IT
See you guys. God bless

Lord you are simply wonderful and mighty.

BLESSED

Blessed are the poor in spirit

For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who mourn

For they will be comforted.

Blessed are the meek

For they will inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness

For they will be filled.

Blessed are the merciful

For they will be shown mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart

For they will see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers

For they will be called sons of God.

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness

For theirs is the kingdom of heaven.